A Week to Test Resolve
Ok so this week has been one that I have decided to test my resolve and ask the Lord for a lot, and I mean a lot of support. I have also asked my wife to be patient and supportive of the decision that I had made on Monday since she is my main support line. I have also looked inside myself to make sure that I would have the courage and strength to make it through the decision I made.
This weekend I had talked to a few people at Church to include my pastor and had been throwing around the idea of stopping taking my pain medication that I have been on for almost 2 years now. Now mind you, this decision does not come easy. I know that the medication that I have been taking is not just something that you are supposed to be able to quit with no consequences. For one the pain is going to come back in my hips and back and that is not something that I am looking forward to. In addition the drug I have been on is Percocet which is a synthetic Opiate which main ingredient is Oxycodone. I already knew from personal experience when I had run out before that you do experience DT and withdraw symptoms like you would when an alcoholic or heroine user does when they stop using. My wife was extremely apprehensive when I told her on Monday that I was stopping taking the medication. There was no further I could wean myself off since I was already taking the lowest dose that I was able to go so it was time to just stop taking it.
Well day 1 wasn’t so bad. True that the pain had started to come back, but thanks to my wife keeping me busy with painting the house most of the day, it wasn’t something that I noticed until later on in the day. I didn’t have any tremors or sweats to speak of so that was also good, and I was in an overall good mood. I only had to take one nap for about an hour throughout the day when I started feeling not so good.
Day 2 started off a little rocky. I woke up groggy and really stiff with a lot of pain in my hips and back. I took a couple Tylenol and my Cymbalta which helps with the pain by blocking the nerve receptors and started about my day. I could feel the difference today though because I had no energy and I wasn’t really with it. I did experience a point today in which I had to go and lay down for about 4 hours and I started to get the sweats and really didn’t feel well, but with the support of Shannon and through prayers I was able to wake up from the nap feeling pretty good and going the rest of the night without incident. My wife did make a trip to the store to get some Aleve to counter some of the arthritic pain that I am feeling and I believe this helped out as well.
Day 3 has started off pretty good. This is where I was a total mess last time and couldn’t take it anymore. Not so much pain so far this morning and I am feeling pretty good. As pastor Greg had told me, it might be bad on day 2 or 3 but what if you push on, what would day 4, 5, and 6 bring. I will endure whatever is to come and I will find out. I think that if I can make it through today then I should be home free with no issues. This will be one of the many addictions in my life that I have let go since I have accepted Christ and to me this is one of the most important ones to let go from my life. Living on painkillers is no way to live. The dependency that you have to them is really life wrecking and also helps to destroy your body which is definitely something I do not need. So for all those that have known me, I am now free of Alcohol, Harmful Video Games, and the Percocet. So look out world here comes a new me. Thank you for reading and God Bless.
G.E.D.D.
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